This should be a shorter one:) I just wanted to let you all know, if you hadn’t already heard – my appointment in May went really well. Thank you all for your prayers! They continue to watch some areas in the tumor cavity, but so far are not concerned enough to take any action. I was also relieved to find out – as funny as it may sound, that I get migraines:) Yay! It’s a relief because I DO have headaches, they were significantly reduced after surgery (that pounding pressure squish your head kind), but I still can get really bad ones. I find that whenever I have one of those days, where my head is throbbing and my energy shrinks to the size of a peanut… my mind immediately goes to cancer. “Great” I think. “This is it… tumor’s back, time to get psyched for chemo and the skill saw.” My body now associates extreme fatigue and headaches with cancer. I know this is all in my mind… but it really does become an emotional/spiritual battle… often reducing me to tears, feeling like I just may have experienced my last healthy day. So in asking my doctor about these headaches and is there some specific kinds that I need to be on the tumor lookout for… he tells me, “Christina we will see something on the MRI’s long before you will feel anything physically”. He asked me a few more questions and said… “yep, you have migraines, and probably have for a long while.” WELL HECK YES!!! I’LL TAKE MIGRAINES ANY DAY!:) So here I am a happy migraine sufferer ready to take one tired or energetic day at a time:)
The other news as you might have noticed is that… hmmm… I am the proud owner of a motorcycle. My roommate Stacey and I took the safety class together in January for fun… and “just in case”:)… and well, here we are ready to ride all summer long on our zippy new machines:) This is something I’ve wanted to try for a long time, ever since middle school when my friend Katie Hooker – now Klevens, (yes you Katie, it’s your fault!) invited me to go to motorbike camp with her. We were the only girls in a camp of maybe 50 boys. Um… where can I find a camp like that now?? Sounds like Heaven:) Hey! Maybe Heaven IS like that… you never know;) Anyway that’s where I fell in love with them (the bikes mom and dad, the BIKES;), and this summer a dream comes true! God provided the funds in a unique way and all the pieces just fell into place. Some say they are too dangerous, but really you know what?… life is dangerous. We can do everything right, and still get brain tumors at 25. Life is meant to be lived, in a responsible way… but for goodness sakes, we just have to live. I love being at the place in life where I don’t hesitate to follow dreams anymore. Putting things off until “later” is silly… because we really tomorrow just might not be there:) Like I said in my last update, I’m going to embrace what God’s given me today… Life. And I won’t stop embracing it until I take my lungs take that last breath. If that means pursuing a silly motorcycle dream or still allowing myself to get excited about the thought of falling in love one day, or even continuing to share my story as I walk this journey in the hopes of drawing other hearts to Christ… I will do it. With God’s strength, courage, and grace EVERY DAY, I will do it.
P.S. For those of you that don’t know… the motorcycle “wave” is one of the BEST parts about being out on the road… I could be the only one that breaks into a huge smile every time… but it’s like being in a club with a secret handshake, and I’ve instantly made THOUSANDS of friends – big hairy Harley ones, and little cute speed racer ones and everybody in between:). It’s hard to stay nonchalant and cool like everyone else, because I secretly have to hold back the arm pumps and the HUGE thumbs up, although they still do slip out occasionally:) I’m a total dork and I know it… it’s just SO STINKIN’ FUN! Maybe it’s just me:)
Love to you all! Thank you all for your continued prayers. Your support ALWAYS ALWAYS blesses my heart.
Big Hugs and wild arm pumps…
“He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will SOAR on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” Isaiah 40: 29-31